what i'll miss ....

I leave tomorrow ...

how can I leave those kissable lips ?

i got to see a couple become a family

Brooke & I enjoy games together ... but it's a BLAST playing with Steve! Truly, I will miss that

no one can tell me that a newborn doesn't smile

we caught several smiles - mostly while he was sleeping

wonder what he was dreaming about ...

and as i hold him, i REALLY wonder what he'd tell me if he could speak

ok - i've been the recipient of many mighty miracles

the witness of incredible beauty

the holder of love

but nothing can compare with my

intense joy

of seeing my baby love her baby

here's what else I'll miss:

gage's hair right after a sponge bath

his sweet, sweet baby breath

the "o" that forms on his lips as he looks around in wonder

his hoarse cry

the fat rolls forming on his neck

sleeping with Gage on my chest

the way none of us can stop the powerful stream that inevitably happens when we're almost finished changing his diaper

kissing his cheeks

hearing his contented coos just after eating and at the beginning of sleep

being unaware and apathetic about what time of day or night it is

my unlimited access to snuggles

Steven's rise of blood pressure and exclamation of "MOTHER!" when I taunt him during a game

Brookie and Steven telling me they love me

burying my face in Gage's hair as I hold him

thank you, kids

for the time here, for wanting me, for sharing your precious miracle

I will miss you